Full of Hot Air

Anyone who’s ever flown in an airplane — and that includes most of us — knows what the ground looks like from above. So why bother going up in a hot-air balloon? The answer is that it’s a totally different experience. Your field of vision is not limited by the size of the airplane window, which in any case is usually more than a foot away from your face; you are surrounded by a pervasive silence; and you stay still long enough to meditate on the scenery. You can even stop to wonder what’s holding you up.

Hot-air balloons were a common and pretty sight over Lumberton Leas when we moved here ten years ago. One rarely sees them now in this area, although elsewhere in New Jersey, according to the Internet, ballooning is alive and well.

My eye was caught by a Road Scholar (formerly Elderhostel) catalog, which featured an intergenerational program of which ballooning was a part. To be clear, intergenerational might as well be called “generation-skipping,” because parents are not invited. The programs are intended for grandparents and their grandkids, to the benefit of all three generations.

Just before takeoff
Just before takeoff

My grandson Ethan, who lives in New York City, flew with me (by plane) to Salt Lake City, whence we were shuttled 45 miles south to our hotel in Provo. A minibus took us to all our outdoor adventures including the base for balloon takeoff, about 7500 ft above sea level. Our ascent took Just before takeoff us another 3000 feet. Standing in a basket, leaning over the rail to see the earth below from horizon to horizon, we had little to say because we were silenced by our wonderment. We felt no wind because we were moving in the same direction as the wind at the same speed.

We were not alone up there!
We were not alone up there!

Every so often the dead quiet was broken by the roar of the propane burners, reheating the air in the balloon. We rose imperceptibly and the pilot shut off the burners. Vertical motion, in fact, was the pilot’s only control over steering. To move in any direction horizontally, he took advantage of layering of the atmosphere, with wind direction changing from one layer to the next. (You can see this phenomenon from the ground if you watch the divergent motion of clouds at different altitudes.) Finding the desired layers involved trial and error, and bringing the balloon down exactly where he wanted it was the ultimate demonstration of the pilot’s skill.

I had intended to stay overnight in NYC after our late-evening flight, but I wanted to be home when Irene came knocking, so I spent midnight to 3:30 a.m. on the road.

MEMORY, LONG TERM AND SHORT

Whatever happened to that brash 13-year-old
     who shamelessly threw her arms around my neck
     and locked the gaze of her hazel eyes on mine?

Whatever happened to that 14-year-old in the Juliet cap,
     whom I sought so eagerly when the curtain parted
     at the end of the worship service?

Whatever happened to the girl whose cheek I kissed,
     leaning out the window in that precious last second
     before the train began to move
    — a kiss that would sustain me for months to come?

We were children, uprooted from parental home
     by persecution and war,
     deposited in a strange country where people spoke
     a strange language,
     and after five loveless years we had found each other.

But postwar reunion with parents, who had been denied
     bearing witness to their child’s flowering,
     was just as disruptive as the original parting.

Preoccupied with memories of suffering
     they had barely survived,
     they had little patience with my romantic awakening,
     did not rejoice with me, did not allow my adolescence
     to run its natural, happy course.

Fearful and suspicious, they maligned, blocked, warned,
     and thereby sullied our parent-child relationship.
     What a shame they didn’t simply let youth’s fancy
     bloom and wither of its own accord.

Seventy years later — years of maturity,
     settled with life partner, children, grandchildren —
     she vividly remembers that lush oasis
     in the desolate landscape of our childhood.

But the present eludes her.
     She forgets my answer
     to the question she asked just minutes ago,
     even forgets that she asked.

So she asks again,
     and asks again,
     and forgets both answer and question each time.

That’s what happened to her.
     She did not choose what to remember
     and what to forget;
     her illness mercifully chose for her.

Mercifully, because forgotten questions can be repeated,
     over and over until remembered,
     but forgotten memories of youth are lost forever.

    

WORDS FOR A SACRED PLACE

I look, I listen.
I feel an indefinable presence.
In the majestic woods, in whose embrace this sacred place is nestled,
I feel it,
though my eyes see only trees and the sky above.
In the ground on which we stand, so full of life and the remains of life deceased,
I feel it,
though my ears hear only the occasional birdcall and the random rustle of leaves.
I sense a hand beckoning and a voice softly saying,
“If you are moved by what you’ve felt here,
then, in your good time, come to me, add your voice to mine,
so that together we may afford the same experience to those you’ve left behind.”

Meditation Garden, a place for quiet and contemplation in the woods at Medford Leas, underwent extensive reconstruction in the summer of 2013. These lines were written for its dedication on November 7 of that year.

A MOST PRECIOUS GIFT

The love of a friend is unlike any other,
Unlike husband for wife, unlike sister for brother.

It does not compete, it does not displace,
But claims in your heart its select, reserved space.

It’s not rooted in task, in advancement, or duty,
It’s a bond, pure and simple, and there lies its beauty.

It is honest, sincere, has no need for disguise.
Its embrace is for all, the naïve and the wise.

It is food for the intellect, food for the soul,
It nurtures the spirit and renders it whole.

Should you be despondent or feel cast adrift
Think of a true friend and your spirits will lift

…Indeed,

The love of a friend is a most precious gift.